Thank Y, do you ever get finger fatigue from hitting 'Refresh' and 'Edit' to keep up with all this? Just curious.\r
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I have to admit, I pop a bag of popcorn every time I sit down to catch up on my CitySearch. This has achieved the same entertainment value as any show on Netflix. \r
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Sometimes I feel bad though. I feel like former members of this place are doing little more than poking fun at current members, mocking their lack of reasoning abilities and common sense. It almost feels to me like making fun of a cripple for the fact that he can't walk. Does that make sense?\r
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Do you think that these people in this church don't know their own regrets? That they don't regret the decision to drop out of college? Or skip the promotion that would have paid the bills? Or the chance they had to marry their true love now living outside the walls? \r
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Of course they do. \r
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They live those nightmares every day of their life, and it eats them up inside. I know it. Because I lived it. I knew what it meant to swallow my own intuition without a word of protest. It was terrifying at times how much my mind raged against the machine. I knew better, and yet I could not rise. \r
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Let us continue to show grace. Not because we are better human beings, but because we were once slaves to a very powerful mind game ourselves. Sometime I imagine how we would feel about our own life's regrets if we could, but for a moment, envision in our mind's eye our own selves, laughing at how easy it was to defeat a less knowledgeable child at the game of chess.
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