I was having an exceptionally rough couple of weeks. I had been in the hospital 5 days, after just moving to Houston. I had no family or friends around and came to Lakewood for the 2nd time. (once before I had gone into the hospital - and this evening) Victoria was very uplifting and encouraging and so was Joel. He had said something about volunteering in his message, which appealed to me so I was going to sign up, on a limited basis while I am getting adjusted to my new anti-seizure medicine but thought I would do what I could. He mentioned in his service message that he also wanted to meet the new members (seemed genuine about it at the time)... and that he would also be signing books at the front. I of course like the inspirational type books and thought I would get one for myself and a friend of mine. however, when I got up there all the the security and helpers around said I could not speak to him and put everyone in a row, had our books out and said he had his own pen, he didn't have time to talk he could only sign the book, when I tried to ask a question like, ""why did he say that he would greet new people in the service if that wasn't the case"" .... they quickly pulled the book out of my hand and had him sign it. They did offer to let me have a picture with him at some point, uuhhhmmmm ""NO"" He is supposed to be my pastor not George Clooney. Everyone was getting their picture taken. with him. When I was puzzled by this, JOel , was just putting his pen on one book to the next (I had two books) and said I am sorry I hope you come back. I wanted to thank him for his message, but couldn't.... didn't give me 10 seconds. PERHAPS IF HE HAD LOOKED UP FOR LONGER THAN A HALF OF A SECOND AND CONCENTRATED ON NOT BEING A CELEBRITY AND MORE ON BEING A WELCOMING PASTOR OF THE CHURCH HE WOULD HAVE NOTICED SOMEONE IN NEED OF A KIND WORD, NOT A GLAM SHOT AND AN AUTOGRAPH. Then was so upset about his security team and the way I was treated with the whole thing I wanted to just return the books, instead they just told me I had to leave. I never seen a preacher in need of that kind of security, I am sure there is a reason for it, BUT WOW.... If you can't make time for your members, you don't have anything. Makes me questions their true motives.